Will's Space

First, let me say how happy i am that school is over.  It did not go as well (grade wise) as last semester, but at this point it doesnt matter.  I have been unusually stessed out these last few weeks, and i'm not to sure why.  I just think that the stress of school and the anxiety of waiting for my trip to Japan, and making sure that i will have enough money, has been making life seem abit heavy.  Despit any of my stress though, I am madly in love with my girlfriend Haruka, and just seeing her makes me feel like i'm in  another world.  All of my future revolves around my life with her.  Like i just recently explained to her, this is the first time that i've ever felt this way, this intimately, toward someone, so I get nervous, especially these last couple weeks (due to the stress from school) that maybe i'm not doing my job, and somehow i might loose what is most dear to my heart.  What most people do not realize, and I dont even know if she realizes, is that I would gladly give up anything in this world to be with her.  This is the first time in my life that i have had a relationship that has lasted over 2 months.  In about two weeks we will be hitting the 6 month mark.  I dont know what to get her for this, or if this even merits a gift.  I think it does, because this a long time, and yet it has gone by so fast because the love we share is so strong.  Well, we'll see when the time comes, but in the meantime, i have been getting ready for my Japan trip.  All i can say on this is がんばて。  I am very excited to see my girlfriends homeland, and get a chance to see where she is coming from.  A lot about a person can be seen in the place that they are from, so this will be quite the learning experience.  I cannot wait to go!  Well my fingers are tired so who knows how long it will be till i write again.

Will

Well....spring break is officially over....SHIT.  Now I'm being dropped back into reality and I have to take care of lots of work, mainly my huge paper that I have only a month and a half to finish.  I'm worried about getting to Japan, getting a house, making money....well pretty much about my future.  I often find that I do not know what to do so my future will benefit, thats one of the reasons it was nice to be with my dad for break, because I did not have to think about any of that.  Spring break was great, it is always fun and enjoyable to be around my dad, yet I was upset because I did not have time to show him everything that I wanted to originally.  He left today, and who knows how long it will be before I see him again.  Well as usuall I'm lost in a sea of thought.....we'll see where I end up.